Do I know what love is?
Peace, security, selflessness, passion?
Could it be that all of these are true?
That when I look into your eyes, I see your spirit, your soul,
That I am entranced by your gaze, the sparkle and electricity that entices my soul,
That when I look at you, I see a life in the future that includes both of us,
A ring on both of our left hands, that attaches us forever,
Picturing us growing together, older and older,
Always having the fire inside,
It never dying,
Always wanting,
You ask me, isn't that a while away?
Yes, but just looking into your eyes makes me know that it can be real,
A love so pure, that inside, I know its meant to be.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Life Story
You live your whole life, looking for the right person.
You compare, you observe.
You love, you break.
You learn, but sometimes it's too late.
Your heart gets broken, too many times.
It lays into to peices all over the ground.
But then someone comes around.
And you are someone that needs to be found.
They come to you, with super glue,
And put your heart back together, to make it brand new.
The feeling I get, when I'm around you.
Brings light into my heart, a love so true.
I searched, and I lost.
And paid some hefty costs.
But now I know that love is true.
Ever since I met you.
You compare, you observe.
You love, you break.
You learn, but sometimes it's too late.
Your heart gets broken, too many times.
It lays into to peices all over the ground.
But then someone comes around.
And you are someone that needs to be found.
They come to you, with super glue,
And put your heart back together, to make it brand new.
The feeling I get, when I'm around you.
Brings light into my heart, a love so true.
I searched, and I lost.
And paid some hefty costs.
But now I know that love is true.
Ever since I met you.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
I Remember
I remember the first day I ever watched Spongebob Square Pants, and I fell in love with my future husband, Patrick Star.
I remember when this one kid in my Spanish class in ninth grade threw up all over the back of me.
I remember eating Milk Duds until I threw up on my eleventh birthday.
I remember my first kiss, on Homecoming night. :)
I remember the day that I met him.
I remember when I stepped on my group's final structure project and broke it in half, but the worst part is that it was worth about 75% of our final grade in my 7th grade engineering class...I've never been treated the same since...
I remember seeing Zac Efron's glorious masterpeice of a face in the first High School Musical.
I remember the day I went to my first concert, Hilary Duff, in 6th grade, heck yeah.
I remember going to Warped Tour a couple hours after I got picked up from EFY, two very different, pretty much opposite atmospheres.
I remember being a boy crazy fool all throughout junior high.
I remember falling off my bed during efy, and my cousin taking a picture of it.
I remember running up the stairs from the dark basement, literally sprinting, because I was scared someone was going to pop out from the darkness and grab my feet.
I remember when I saw my big little brother cry, tour my heart in peices.
I remember when I got surgery on my foot, definite water works day.
I remember my child development robot baby, I loved my baby Dan, I hated giving him back, like they were almost taking a peice of me.
I remember... life...
I remember when this one kid in my Spanish class in ninth grade threw up all over the back of me.
I remember eating Milk Duds until I threw up on my eleventh birthday.
I remember my first kiss, on Homecoming night. :)
I remember the day that I met him.
I remember when I stepped on my group's final structure project and broke it in half, but the worst part is that it was worth about 75% of our final grade in my 7th grade engineering class...I've never been treated the same since...
I remember seeing Zac Efron's glorious masterpeice of a face in the first High School Musical.
I remember the day I went to my first concert, Hilary Duff, in 6th grade, heck yeah.
I remember going to Warped Tour a couple hours after I got picked up from EFY, two very different, pretty much opposite atmospheres.
I remember being a boy crazy fool all throughout junior high.
I remember falling off my bed during efy, and my cousin taking a picture of it.
I remember running up the stairs from the dark basement, literally sprinting, because I was scared someone was going to pop out from the darkness and grab my feet.
I remember when I saw my big little brother cry, tour my heart in peices.
I remember when I got surgery on my foot, definite water works day.
I remember my child development robot baby, I loved my baby Dan, I hated giving him back, like they were almost taking a peice of me.
I remember... life...
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Journal Entry (Stan #11)
We were strolling down the pier, gently holding hands as the sun began to slowly set on the most perfect summer day. The sand started to be molded between our toes, I giggled at the feeling. The warm, tan, and almost sparkling tan crystals were almost like powder, it was so pure. The water was beautiful, it was clear, and bluer than the sky.
"It's so beautiful out here," I whispered in your ear.
You smiled, "not as beautiful as you."
You squeezed my hand tighter, and we began to frolick into the tide. The salty water sprayed us in our faces. I grabbed a handful of muddy and wet sand, and threw it at your face. You laughed and put your arms around me in a really tight bear hug, and then began to lift me off the ground and spin me around. I squealed into a laugh, and I held on to you tightly. You let me down, and gave me more of a gentler hug, and we both giggled and kissed. It was truly a perfect day, happiness was overflowing my heart, and I just felt like I had to catch the memory of this wonderful day.
"Hey babe, I want to go get my camera from the car, I will be right back." I grinned.
"Okay, hurry back though, I'll miss you! " you replied and laughed, "I love you."
"I love you too." I went over to you and gave you a quick kiss, but it was probably the most magical kiss we had shared yet, and I didn't know why.
I ran off to the car, the hot black top was burning the bottom of my feet. I hopped into the passenger seat, and started to look for my camera. I looked all over the floor and under beach blankets and baskets, but I couldn't find it anywhere. I looked for it for about 45 minutes, and I was expecting for you to come back and see why it was taking me such a long time, but you never did, but I didn't pay much attention to that.
I kept looking for the camera, until, all of a sudden, an ambulance came flying into the parking lot. Two men hopped out of the driver and passenger seats, grabbed a stretcher from the back, and began running towards the water. My heart began to pound, and I jumped out of the car and began to run to the water as fast as I possibly could. When I finally reached the edge of the sand, I watched in horror as they lifted you (my finacee) out of the water onto the stretcher, and put a sheet over his face. I followed them back to the ambulance, my legs feeling like jello. My heart felt like it had stopped, and I fell to my knees, tears began streaming down my face, the saltiness started to burn my eyes. I watched as they rolled your body into the ambulance and shut the big white doors. I saw a man standing next to his car with his cell phone in his hand on the other side of the parking lot.
He walked slowly towards me, "did you know him?"
"Yeah... he asked me to marry him this morning," more tears started to fill my eyes.
"Oh, I am so sorry for your loss," he patted my arm, "I saw him, he was getting deeper and deeper into the water, and there was this wave..." he looked down at his feet, "I saw him struggling once it hit, and I tried to run over, but the waves were too strong, and they just kept coming and pulling him down. So I called 911, but it was too late."
I gave him a hug, "thank you."
"No problem," he said, "do you need a ride, or do you need someone to talk to?"
"Its okay, but thanks, I'll just follow the ambulance to the hospital."
He nodded and left to his car. I slowly walked myself to your car, and slid into the driver's seat. Your cologne still filled the car, the sweet scent filled my nose. I looked at the ring on my finger, the little diamond sparkled. I slid it off of my finger, and held it in both hands. I brought it to my lips and kissed it. I held it near my heart. My eyes were closed, the salty tears dripped from my eyes. "I could of saved you, I could of saved you from drowning, if I would of just stayed."
"It's so beautiful out here," I whispered in your ear.
You smiled, "not as beautiful as you."
You squeezed my hand tighter, and we began to frolick into the tide. The salty water sprayed us in our faces. I grabbed a handful of muddy and wet sand, and threw it at your face. You laughed and put your arms around me in a really tight bear hug, and then began to lift me off the ground and spin me around. I squealed into a laugh, and I held on to you tightly. You let me down, and gave me more of a gentler hug, and we both giggled and kissed. It was truly a perfect day, happiness was overflowing my heart, and I just felt like I had to catch the memory of this wonderful day.
"Hey babe, I want to go get my camera from the car, I will be right back." I grinned.
"Okay, hurry back though, I'll miss you! " you replied and laughed, "I love you."
"I love you too." I went over to you and gave you a quick kiss, but it was probably the most magical kiss we had shared yet, and I didn't know why.
I ran off to the car, the hot black top was burning the bottom of my feet. I hopped into the passenger seat, and started to look for my camera. I looked all over the floor and under beach blankets and baskets, but I couldn't find it anywhere. I looked for it for about 45 minutes, and I was expecting for you to come back and see why it was taking me such a long time, but you never did, but I didn't pay much attention to that.
I kept looking for the camera, until, all of a sudden, an ambulance came flying into the parking lot. Two men hopped out of the driver and passenger seats, grabbed a stretcher from the back, and began running towards the water. My heart began to pound, and I jumped out of the car and began to run to the water as fast as I possibly could. When I finally reached the edge of the sand, I watched in horror as they lifted you (my finacee) out of the water onto the stretcher, and put a sheet over his face. I followed them back to the ambulance, my legs feeling like jello. My heart felt like it had stopped, and I fell to my knees, tears began streaming down my face, the saltiness started to burn my eyes. I watched as they rolled your body into the ambulance and shut the big white doors. I saw a man standing next to his car with his cell phone in his hand on the other side of the parking lot.
He walked slowly towards me, "did you know him?"
"Yeah... he asked me to marry him this morning," more tears started to fill my eyes.
"Oh, I am so sorry for your loss," he patted my arm, "I saw him, he was getting deeper and deeper into the water, and there was this wave..." he looked down at his feet, "I saw him struggling once it hit, and I tried to run over, but the waves were too strong, and they just kept coming and pulling him down. So I called 911, but it was too late."
I gave him a hug, "thank you."
"No problem," he said, "do you need a ride, or do you need someone to talk to?"
"Its okay, but thanks, I'll just follow the ambulance to the hospital."
He nodded and left to his car. I slowly walked myself to your car, and slid into the driver's seat. Your cologne still filled the car, the sweet scent filled my nose. I looked at the ring on my finger, the little diamond sparkled. I slid it off of my finger, and held it in both hands. I brought it to my lips and kissed it. I held it near my heart. My eyes were closed, the salty tears dripped from my eyes. "I could of saved you, I could of saved you from drowning, if I would of just stayed."
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Impulse 2
John: "By the way, your paying."
Kasey: "Ummm, ok." (looks puzzled)
John: "Ya...so... so look really pretty tonight, I like your dress."
Kasey: "Thank you! You looked like quite a.. "
John: " A stud? Yeah I know, anyways, sorry for spilling punch all over you at the dance."
Kasey: "Its no big deal, my dress was just white, now its pink."
John: "Its hot."
Kasey: "Okay...thanks."
John: " Did you have a good time at Homecoming with me?"
Kasey: "Yes, it was great!"
John: "Oh I know, its just because you were with me."
Kasey: "Sure."
John: "Oh you don't need to be modest about it, you were with the hottest guy there, it probably made you seem actually a little hot."
Kasey: "Yes, because that's all I really wanted." (Rolling her eyes)
John: "Oh, I know!"
Kasey: "Oh crap, I don't have any money with me."
John: "Well what kind of date are you?"
Kasey: "Excuse me?"
John: "Okay smart one, how...do we pay... if you don't have money? "
Kasey: "The guy that takes the girl out actually has money! Duhhh!"
John: "Lets go!"
Kasey: "What?! We can't, we haven't paid!"
John: "Shut up and hurry! We have to go before any of the workers notice!"
Kasey: "I'm not stealing."
John: "Lets just go!"
Kasey: "Let go of my arm!" (they run out the front doors)
John: "Yes! That was a close one! Tell me where you live again."
Kasey: "It's fine, I'll walk myself."
John: "Okay, lets get the kiss in then."
Kasey: "Get off of me!" (she slaps him and begins to walk away)
John: "Fine, jerk."
Kasey: "Ummm, ok." (looks puzzled)
John: "Ya...so... so look really pretty tonight, I like your dress."
Kasey: "Thank you! You looked like quite a.. "
John: " A stud? Yeah I know, anyways, sorry for spilling punch all over you at the dance."
Kasey: "Its no big deal, my dress was just white, now its pink."
John: "Its hot."
Kasey: "Okay...thanks."
John: " Did you have a good time at Homecoming with me?"
Kasey: "Yes, it was great!"
John: "Oh I know, its just because you were with me."
Kasey: "Sure."
John: "Oh you don't need to be modest about it, you were with the hottest guy there, it probably made you seem actually a little hot."
Kasey: "Yes, because that's all I really wanted." (Rolling her eyes)
John: "Oh, I know!"
Kasey: "Oh crap, I don't have any money with me."
John: "Well what kind of date are you?"
Kasey: "Excuse me?"
John: "Okay smart one, how...do we pay... if you don't have money? "
Kasey: "The guy that takes the girl out actually has money! Duhhh!"
John: "Lets go!"
Kasey: "What?! We can't, we haven't paid!"
John: "Shut up and hurry! We have to go before any of the workers notice!"
Kasey: "I'm not stealing."
John: "Lets just go!"
Kasey: "Let go of my arm!" (they run out the front doors)
John: "Yes! That was a close one! Tell me where you live again."
Kasey: "It's fine, I'll walk myself."
John: "Okay, lets get the kiss in then."
Kasey: "Get off of me!" (she slaps him and begins to walk away)
John: "Fine, jerk."
Friday, September 25, 2009
Sketch
"Hello Rose," was probably the best two words I had ever heard in my whole life. Maybe, it was because it came out of his mouth, his sweet, deep, rythmic voice saying my name, it sounded like a symphony. I was so shocked, stunned really, I couldn't even speak. "Rose?" he asked with a puzzled grin on his angel like face.
"Oh hello! Hello Ricky! " I spitted out, oh yeah Rosie, nice going, your a genious, you just got spit all over his face, I thought to myself. I just wish I could of said it without giving him a second shower. "I'm so sorry about that." My face was turning a deep red.
"Oh its fine, it happens to all of us." He smiled and patted my back, "So how are you?"
"Gggood. You?" I couldn't breath anymore, he just touched me, ME!
He began to tell me all about his day so far, or maybe it was about his football practice, or maybe it was about his Science project, to tell the truth, I really had no idea, I wasn't really listening, I just couldn't pull my eyes away from his face.
He was truly perfect in everyway. He was the most known guy in our whole school, but he was also so modest about himself. It amazed me how down to earth he was, I mean his life was truly perfect. He was the quarterback of our school football team, not to mention the best player, he took our team to state 2 years in a row, and everyone knew that he would do it again for his senior year. He was also the most gorgeous person currently living on this planet, probably even in this universe. Everyone loved him, including me. He was truly an amazing person.
I just couldn't concentrate on what he was saying, I was in a complete trance. His gorgeous blue eyes just glistened from the light hanging from the hallway ceiling, like a pond of crystal clear blue water. He always tilted his head slightly whenever he talked to someone, and tends to want to be close to your face. His tan skin, it was too marvelous to describe, it was so smooth, yet it seemed so fragile and fresh, like porcelain. His smile just brightened the whole room when he walked in, the whiteness of his teeth was just magical. Like they almost sparkle, like little crystals of hottness, you could say that he was my own little Edward Cullen. :) You couldn't help but just smile whenever you saw him. His hair, was a chocolate brown, so welcoming and creamy, it looked so warm and comfortable, I just wanted to take a nap in it! And I don't even know how to begin talking about his bod! Oh my gosh, I swear it was carved by an angel, it was a masterpeice. Like one of the statue greek gods, perfectly sculped.
Whenever I looked at him though, it made me so excited, of course! But also, sadness just would fill my heart, because, he was just too perfect. And when I say too perfect, too perfect for me, like why would he ever take an interest at me? Like, every single time I saw him smile, my heart would break, just like someone had punched me in my gut, I didn't even hold a candle to the rest of the girls in my school.
All of these things were just running through my mind! But all in all, he was perfect, he was truly my true love, my prince charming, and its been that way since the first time a saw him in 4th grade.
I guess I had been standing there for a long time, just staring at his face. Oh my gosh, I think drool had actually been running down my face! I guess thats why everyone walking by were just bursting out laughing. Oh well, really, who cares? I was almost under a spell, I literally couldn't stop staring at him. All of a sudden, I felt a warm, sculpted, tan, and muscular arm wrap around me. "Rose? Rosie? You there cutie? " he laughed as he softly shook me.
"Yes yes, I'm sorry about that. " I stammered.
" Anyways, would you like to? "
"Liked to what?"
"Come to my game, and then I wanted to take you to dinner afterwards, just you and me." He bit his lip, looking worried, "you don't have to if you don't want to."
I didn't understand, "Me? Really?"
"Yes you," he said as he leaned over and kissed my cheek.
My heart stopped, sparks were flying in my stomach, "yes! yes! I 'd love to!"
" Awesome, I'll see you tonight then." he whispered in my ear as he walked away.
"Ok, " I said as I closed my eyes and rubbed my cheek. Finally, my dreams had come true. ;)
"Oh hello! Hello Ricky! " I spitted out, oh yeah Rosie, nice going, your a genious, you just got spit all over his face, I thought to myself. I just wish I could of said it without giving him a second shower. "I'm so sorry about that." My face was turning a deep red.
"Oh its fine, it happens to all of us." He smiled and patted my back, "So how are you?"
"Gggood. You?" I couldn't breath anymore, he just touched me, ME!
He began to tell me all about his day so far, or maybe it was about his football practice, or maybe it was about his Science project, to tell the truth, I really had no idea, I wasn't really listening, I just couldn't pull my eyes away from his face.
He was truly perfect in everyway. He was the most known guy in our whole school, but he was also so modest about himself. It amazed me how down to earth he was, I mean his life was truly perfect. He was the quarterback of our school football team, not to mention the best player, he took our team to state 2 years in a row, and everyone knew that he would do it again for his senior year. He was also the most gorgeous person currently living on this planet, probably even in this universe. Everyone loved him, including me. He was truly an amazing person.
I just couldn't concentrate on what he was saying, I was in a complete trance. His gorgeous blue eyes just glistened from the light hanging from the hallway ceiling, like a pond of crystal clear blue water. He always tilted his head slightly whenever he talked to someone, and tends to want to be close to your face. His tan skin, it was too marvelous to describe, it was so smooth, yet it seemed so fragile and fresh, like porcelain. His smile just brightened the whole room when he walked in, the whiteness of his teeth was just magical. Like they almost sparkle, like little crystals of hottness, you could say that he was my own little Edward Cullen. :) You couldn't help but just smile whenever you saw him. His hair, was a chocolate brown, so welcoming and creamy, it looked so warm and comfortable, I just wanted to take a nap in it! And I don't even know how to begin talking about his bod! Oh my gosh, I swear it was carved by an angel, it was a masterpeice. Like one of the statue greek gods, perfectly sculped.
Whenever I looked at him though, it made me so excited, of course! But also, sadness just would fill my heart, because, he was just too perfect. And when I say too perfect, too perfect for me, like why would he ever take an interest at me? Like, every single time I saw him smile, my heart would break, just like someone had punched me in my gut, I didn't even hold a candle to the rest of the girls in my school.
All of these things were just running through my mind! But all in all, he was perfect, he was truly my true love, my prince charming, and its been that way since the first time a saw him in 4th grade.
I guess I had been standing there for a long time, just staring at his face. Oh my gosh, I think drool had actually been running down my face! I guess thats why everyone walking by were just bursting out laughing. Oh well, really, who cares? I was almost under a spell, I literally couldn't stop staring at him. All of a sudden, I felt a warm, sculpted, tan, and muscular arm wrap around me. "Rose? Rosie? You there cutie? " he laughed as he softly shook me.
"Yes yes, I'm sorry about that. " I stammered.
" Anyways, would you like to? "
"Liked to what?"
"Come to my game, and then I wanted to take you to dinner afterwards, just you and me." He bit his lip, looking worried, "you don't have to if you don't want to."
I didn't understand, "Me? Really?"
"Yes you," he said as he leaned over and kissed my cheek.
My heart stopped, sparks were flying in my stomach, "yes! yes! I 'd love to!"
" Awesome, I'll see you tonight then." he whispered in my ear as he walked away.
"Ok, " I said as I closed my eyes and rubbed my cheek. Finally, my dreams had come true. ;)
Thursday, September 17, 2009
The IMPULSE
Stacy- What's wrong? Your so quiet.
Michael- Nothing, I'm just thinking.
Stacy- About what?
Michael- About everything that happened at the park.
Stacy- Wasn't it so fun?! It was a blast!!
Michael- To you maybe.
Stacy- Just because it started to rain during the picnic? You don't like the rain?
Michael- Thats not the point, it's not that.
Stacy- Okay then, then just tell me what happened.
Micahel- It's just you.
Stacy- Me?! What did I do?!
Michael- You know what, don't give me that.
Stacy- Seriously, what?
Michael- Who in the heck was that guy you were talking to there?
Stacy- Guy? Oh...Will? Yeah, what about him?
Michael- You two seemed pretty comfortable with eachother.
Stacy- Yeah, we are, so what?
Michael- So, what was THAT back there? The hugging, the little kisses, he had his hands all over you today!
Stacy- Why do you care?!
Michael-...I don't.
Stacy- Fine, whatever.
Michael- I just don't want you to talk to him anymore.
Stacy- You sir, can not tell me what to do! Remember, YOU DON'T CARE!
Michael- Dang it Stace, he's just not right for you!
Stacy- Oh ya?! Than who is Mike?
Michael- ....
Stacy- WHO IS?!
Michael- ....me?
Stacy- ....
Michael- Dang it, I knew this would happen if I told you.
Stacy- ....
Michael- Never mind then.
Stacy- Wait, are you for reals?
Michael- Yeah, I wouldn't lie to you, I've always loved you.
Stacy- I didn't know, I had no idea.
Michael- Yeah, I know.
Stacy- ....
Michael- Forget about it.
Stacy- No, just give me a second.
Michael- ....
Stacy- I love you too, but ever since...
Michael- Ever since what?
Stacy- You went out with that one girl.
Michael- That was four freakin' years ago! You still think about that?
Stacy- Yes, everyday.
Michael- Well, I wasn't with her because of her, I just wanted you.
Stacy- You should of thought about it earlier.
Michael- I know.
Stacy- Your too late.
Michael- Too late?
Stacy- Yeah.
Michael- Why?
Stacy- Will
Michael- What about him?
Stacy- He proposed.
Michael- When?!
Stacy- Today.
Michael- And you said....?
Stacy- Yes.
Michael- ....
Michael- Nothing, I'm just thinking.
Stacy- About what?
Michael- About everything that happened at the park.
Stacy- Wasn't it so fun?! It was a blast!!
Michael- To you maybe.
Stacy- Just because it started to rain during the picnic? You don't like the rain?
Michael- Thats not the point, it's not that.
Stacy- Okay then, then just tell me what happened.
Micahel- It's just you.
Stacy- Me?! What did I do?!
Michael- You know what, don't give me that.
Stacy- Seriously, what?
Michael- Who in the heck was that guy you were talking to there?
Stacy- Guy? Oh...Will? Yeah, what about him?
Michael- You two seemed pretty comfortable with eachother.
Stacy- Yeah, we are, so what?
Michael- So, what was THAT back there? The hugging, the little kisses, he had his hands all over you today!
Stacy- Why do you care?!
Michael-...I don't.
Stacy- Fine, whatever.
Michael- I just don't want you to talk to him anymore.
Stacy- You sir, can not tell me what to do! Remember, YOU DON'T CARE!
Michael- Dang it Stace, he's just not right for you!
Stacy- Oh ya?! Than who is Mike?
Michael- ....
Stacy- WHO IS?!
Michael- ....me?
Stacy- ....
Michael- Dang it, I knew this would happen if I told you.
Stacy- ....
Michael- Never mind then.
Stacy- Wait, are you for reals?
Michael- Yeah, I wouldn't lie to you, I've always loved you.
Stacy- I didn't know, I had no idea.
Michael- Yeah, I know.
Stacy- ....
Michael- Forget about it.
Stacy- No, just give me a second.
Michael- ....
Stacy- I love you too, but ever since...
Michael- Ever since what?
Stacy- You went out with that one girl.
Michael- That was four freakin' years ago! You still think about that?
Stacy- Yes, everyday.
Michael- Well, I wasn't with her because of her, I just wanted you.
Stacy- You should of thought about it earlier.
Michael- I know.
Stacy- Your too late.
Michael- Too late?
Stacy- Yeah.
Michael- Why?
Stacy- Will
Michael- What about him?
Stacy- He proposed.
Michael- When?!
Stacy- Today.
Michael- And you said....?
Stacy- Yes.
Michael- ....
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