My gift would be something to believe in. Something that gave hope to the world. A value? A person? A guideline? Any of which that someone could have faith in. Something that would give life meaning, and a chance to grow. It could be religion for some, it could be a companion for others. Something that makes life worth living.
“We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.” by Oscar Wilde.
Life, frankly is not always fair. People are losing hope quickly, the darkness filling their eyes rapidly. But then there are the others, the ones that can see the light at the end of the tunnel, the stars shining brightly in the dark sky in this case.
What would be the point of living if we didn't have something to look forward to, something that we could believe in. Where would we be? Where would the inspiration to live life to the fullest be?
My gift is for the people that feel alone in this world. When my dear friend told me, "I don't want to live anymore. What is the point? There is nothing here for me," I would of given anything to be able to give them something to live for. My friend is why this gift is so important to me, so he wouldn't have to go through the pain he would inflict on himself, which in turn, hurt me as well. He did things I know he regretted, but it was his way of dealing with his blurred feelings, the emotions he didn't understand. He has no idea how much he truly had to live for; a family, an awesome home, leaders and teachers that would of done anything for him, and people who truly loved him...including me. He didn't realize any of this though, and I just wish I could of helped open his eyes wider.
My gift of having something to believe in, could really save lives. It would help people understand and realize how much they have. They can see that the suicidal actions are pointless, that its really not worth it to do those things, because they could see that they would be working against everything that was good in their life.
Everyone on this earth, that lives, that breaths, all wish that they could change something in there lives. It could be adding something, could be discarding something, but they believe that it could make a difference in their happiness and satisfaction level. But our life is not like a words document, we can't edit what we don't like to make it better, we have to live with what we already have. This gift would help people focus on the positive, it would give us a real reason to keep moving, keep living in this frequently degrading world. Just because the world is trying to make a point by bringing us down, doesn't mean we have to go down and fall into the trap.
This gift isn't something that can happen automatically, we need to work on developing it. People need to just begin to see the good.This world is truly filled with a lot of crud; a lot of things that want to leave us helpless, things that want to swallow us, to make us no more. Its so hard to see the beauty behind the bleak ugliness that seems to cover many of our lives, but the point of this gift is to be able to see past the cloudy visions, and to see the brightness that is in all of our lives somewhere.
Many people feel like life is just to hard to deal with. I know in my life, I've felt worthless, the darkness felt like it just encircled me. I couldn't see through the fog that seemed to box up around me, its deadly attraction to me wanted to smother my vision of the goodness that really was in my life. At one point, I had completely given up on myself. I thought, why is this happening to me? When will this change? Why can't life just let go of me so I wouldn't have to go through this anymore? But one of my dear friends told me one day, why are you doing this? Can't you see how many good things you have in your life? So snap out of it, you're ridiculous. That was a shot to my heart for sure, but those harsh words really saved me. I saw that I really didn't have anything to complain about, and that I truly did have many things that made my life good. That person is someone that gave me hope, which brought me to realize that I had many things to believe in.
This subject, makes me want to give more than a gift, more like a miracle. Its always so painful when a dear loved one finally gives up, gives up on their lives, by completing the final task. You feel like a wonderful gift was wasted. And all that runs through your mind is, what could I have done to help them? To help them see what they truly had? This gift could really save someone, someone who has blurred vision and who feel unstable. The heartbreak and the loss could really be cut down, and rejoice could really replace that. You wouldn't have to see the crying mother, father, or dear loved one who just don't understand the reasons, but to see the happiness that should fill their eyes.
I truly wish I could give this gift to anyone who truly needed it. I know how it feels to feel alone in this world, to not see any hope, but truly, there is always hope, and I hope that this gift would help people see that. This world needs something to believe in. This gift could cure a case of depression, to saving someone's life, to saving the world. How would this world be if the hope could help overcome it's struggles?
I enjoyed your essay. You did a good job of mixing in specific stories with your abstract ambitions to give others peace and love and something to believe in. I LOVED that quote from Oscar Wilde. It fit your essay nicely.
ReplyDeleteWhen my dear friend told me, "I don't want to live anymore...----this line really got my attention.